ON QUEST OF THE SAGE 谈《问祖》2014
ON GETTING IN TOUCH WITH MY CHINESE ROOTS
I spent thirty days in the birthplace of Confucius Nishan, Shandong Province
recording the experience of western philosophers learning Analects
taught by American scholars or philosophers.
Of course they were Chinese philosophers’ students too.
That experience is really enriching for me
I felt I lost touch with my Chinese roots.
The more I learn English, the more I would like to know about my own culture.
I feel I am such a child, knowing so little about my own culture.
I wasn’t taught any of the Chinese classic culture when I was a young girl during Cultural Revolution.
So for me, it is a learning experience making this film.
I must know the roots of the classic Chinese culture.
Learning about Confucius, learning about Zhuangzi, Laozi, or Mengzi,
Going back to their hometown was very enriching experience.
I want to share that with my audience.
I had a lecture last night on 梁漱溟, a Chinese philosopher embracing the Confucius practice.
So I feel I need to seek some answers from this Chinese setting,
So I could be more balanced
I feel like I am little bit too rational, scientific, or western in terms of working.
Although my passion was very Chinese
Very 孝顺，非常孝顺, like respecting parents, wanting to do things for them,
wanting to give back and teach in my own university.
so there is certain conflict here between my passion, my heart and my mind.
So I need to coordinate
Maybe I should learn or ask help from Confucius or something,
or so-called heaven, earth, people should be in one.
This put me onto the journey of students
I am a student again, everyday
学习孔子 庄子老子孟子 老子
比如孝顺 照顾父母 回报母校