ON FIRST CONTACT WITH THE WEST 初次接触西方
I didn’t know I have family in America until 1972 when Nixon visited China.
All of sudden, my aunt showed up in China
I was looking at her. I saw she was so beautiful, I saw she was so bourgeois
She looked just like the bad people, so beautiful
As if beauty should be condemned,
as if grace should be condemned.
So I was really looking at her through the eyes of the communist,
like we should be plain, simple, no makeup, no jewelry.
So I was a little shocked to know someone from the United Stated was my aunt
and she was beautiful.
I was wearing clothes that’s brought to me by my aunt and her daughter
so I appear to be very different in school all of sudden.
I was wearing this big belt-bottom kind of trousers and it was very different.
And that was in the color of the sky
It was not deep blue, it was very light blue.
And on top of it, I went out and bought a pair of red shoes.
So I was really a different looking person
By then I was totally attracted to a different look
By then I felt like my individuality emerged.
So that’s why I planted the idea in myself or
their arrival in China inspired me about another world.
我打量着姑妈的仪表神态 发现她真美 真资产阶级
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