ON CHILDHOOD 谈童年
When I was a little girl, I was wearing Mao’s suit,
holding Mao’s little red book,
actually reciting has works.
My childhood was full of memory that belongs to a period of Cultural Revolution.
The Cultural Revolution was actually an exciting time for me.
Because it was a time for community.
I had great sense of being part of a huge community.
Because everybody was on the street or everybody was holding this red book
Everybody was called on to do something together
So there wasn’t any sense of individuality
I was just part of a group.
I learnt how to become part of the family.
That was actually my little or small problem.
I feel I always have this small aspect of me, if not a huge one,
wanting to become an individual, wanting to be different.
I always want to be different.
For instance, when everybody was doing a“集体舞”, dancing together,
I would be bound to do something else.
So by then I knew I had a little bit different voice.
But I didn’t know how to express that.
I wasn’t so sure whether I should express that individual voice.